Life slips away in seconds; I saw it happen. And then, what looked like the end, became the beginning of a test. 98 days have opened my eyes to so many things I never knew about myself. For example that I can drive at a constant speed and cover a hundred kilometers in ninety minutes in peak hour traffic in Delhi. Other thing I got was a refresher course in inter-personal relationships. There are good time and bad time brothers. I am lucky that I have very few of both, but I saw people do a Houdini when it mattered. My father had a way of teaching us about life; most of the times we listened, sometimes we resisted. The days have made me remember him more often.
I saw a man lie in bed, lovingly helped by his sons. I saw people come and console a woman who decided to take her old lady home, knowing very well that she may not see the light next day. I saw a girl with headphones listening to music sitting next to her unconscious father reading a book. I saw a young boy of nineteen feed his father through a tube while discussing about his old job in cafe coffee day. I am reading a book written by someone who could not hold a glass now. I saw a care provider cry for someone whose relatives did not spare a tear for her.
Anxiety, gave way to hope, then anger and finally hopelessness. At that time, some one whispered in my ears words of strength, wisdom, solace and eternal hope. He realised I had been squinting to look at things which were hurting me and opened my eyes to the truth. A brother and sister holding hands, head bowed together, choking on tears in the middle of night. You have to go through it to know how it feels. And finally, the Healer removed all pain and suffering. And also the life which had hung for so many days.
As I stood to thank people for the support they had given and not given, I did not see faces, but I saw a sea of waves, where the sun lit some waves and left others dark. Maybe it was the effect of the tears in my eyes, maybe. Life is celebrated when a child is born, becomes a struggle as one lives and as it slips, pain takes over. At that moment, I felt no pain, just peace knowing and believing in what had been said before.
And finally to what gives hope and strength -
Beautiful, life is to share
ReplyDeleteLife offers many attractive choices - "what gives hope and strength " .....hard as we all know but it's a previllege that you see the reality that those circumstances have given you immense opportunity as a reminder of what a difference you can make.
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just continue pondering.....at the end it will give you releif.
life is strange...by the time we understand why things r happening this way ...we'r too late.Many times v don't understand n just accept this that this is the will of God or the healer as u said.But if given a chance nobody wants to die...or the worst is to see your loved one die in front of u...even if u think they r going to a better place!!..who knows??..who has seen that??..but the reality is that even if v have average health and circumstances..NOBODY WANTS TO DIE...even if some godmen claim its 'His' calling from above.It is because that is the way we are created n God never planned death for anyone...they say "All good people go to heaven...but no one wants to die"
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